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|Wednesday, August 12th, 2009|
I've been playing the new D&D for a little while now and I've realized some things I do and don't like about it.
I like at-will powers and the fact that everybody gets them. I like the balance of classes and abilities. ( I don't like the monsters.Collapse ) Current Mood: grumpy
|Being a fanboy
I've been thinking about my behavior at Comic-Con towards creative people. I wanted to fanboy. I wanted to tell them how awesome their work was and how much I enjoyed it.( tl;drCollapse ) Current Mood: thoughtful
|Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009|
|Monday, May 18th, 2009|
|Thursday, April 30th, 2009|
|Happy birthday, Amanda Palmer
If you know who Amanda Palmer is and you already like her work, awesome.
If you know who Amanda Palmer is but hate her work, please scroll to the next entry.
If you don't know Amanda Palmer's work, please check out her stuff below.Amanda Palmer
, mainly known as the even-more-awesome half of The Dresden Dolls
, has an album out called Who Killed Amanda Palmer
. Also, she just turned 33. For her birthday, she asked that people tell someone else about her music. I'm happy to do so.
I'm a big fan. I'm normally not much of a music person, really. I don't really get into it. However, Amanda Palmer is my favorite songwriter/singer/musician, and she has been for a few years now. (Sadly, I was too shy to go over and do the fanboy squee the one time I saw her in person, even though she was being very gracious to the other fans who came over to squee. She seems really good at connecting with her fans, both in person and on her blog/twitter/etc.)
Mainly, I just love her sound. I got into the punk-cabaret style of The Dresden Dolls, but I also love the new album. I assert that you're likely to enjoy her sound as well.Oasis
, which I've been playing over and over in my car because of its cheerful tune and dark subject matter.Leeds United
, which seems to be the big single off the new album.AstronautAmpersandRuns in the FamilyThe Point of It AllStrength Through MusicGuitar HeroCreep
(cover)Everybody's Gotta Live
(lip-sync but fun) Current Mood: happy
|Tuesday, April 21st, 2009|
Things are slow at work, so I have time to update. I just don't have much of an idea about what to say.
I meant to go out last night and see friends, but I got wrapped up in some things at home, and then I talked myself out of going. Sorry, friends. :-(
Christine is great, but stressed. She's going to school two nights a week, in addition to her full-time work. Add in the homework, and it turns out she's busy for a lot of what used to be her free time.
I have free time sometimes, but I don't know what to do with it. I have some partially-complete projects, and I should probably work on getting those finished. It's just so very easy to put things off and play on the computer instead.
Work is going well, but I'm a little concerned about the slow time. I've knocked out a bunch of these lame bugs that nobody bothered with (which is exactly what I was hired to do), but now the remaining bugs tend to be things that someone else is actually good at. I could
take them and do them myself, but it's not clear that I should. However, if there's nothing for me to work on, my temporary employment could be in danger. On the other hand, they seem to dig me, and it looks like I'll be here until the end of the year, if they can find enough for me to do.
Rocky is Rocky, as usual. Last Friday I started thinking I was in kind of a rut, and I wondered if I was really still enjoying the show. Then something fun happened on stage and I decided I still enjoy it. Maybe I need a couple of weeks away from performing so I'll get hungry for it again. Still, when we go around and call out for next week's parts, it's hard for me to avoid throwing my name in where there's a gap. (It's partly because there aren't a lot of people competing to be Frank or Brad. Get cleared for more parts, kids, or call out more often for the ones you are cleared for.)
Gaming keeps on going. I have a whole other post to make about what a selfish player I am, but I'll keep it short here. I've been getting a surprising amount of limelight in some recent games, and while I'm delighted with it, I also remind myself about the selfish player thing and feel guilty about not taking more time to make sure everyone else is awesome too.
For instance, in Patrick's game, I'm the guy who can fix stuff, treat injuries, and read ancient writing, but not fight or talk to people. Indeed, with an Intelligence of 15 and a Charisma of 6, I decided my guy is an Aspie. In case that wasn't offensive enough to actual people with Asperger's, I've been trying to use it as power. ("Of course I'm willing to spend all night translating. I'm an Aspie.") I'm used to my guy making a couple of important rolls now and then, but not really being the center of the action. However, in this last session, we went the entire session without a fight at all. Additionally, as the only pure (i.e. non-mutated) human in the party, I had to be the one to go talk to people in the pure-only part of town. I had more face time in the session than anyone else! I knew it was unbalanced because even I felt like I was getting more than my fair share of attention, and I think that's like one's own body odor. If it's noticeable to me, it's probably pretty bad to others. Current Mood: bored
|Monday, April 13th, 2009|
|I'm the douchebag
Gentle Reader, allow me to paraphrase Hearts in Atlantis (the movie version, at least, as I haven't read the book).When I write "bad" under a mental picture of someone, I write it in ink.
This, I realize, is a personal failing on my part. I should be loving and forgiving. I know that people can change over the course of years. I know that I'm prone to confirmation bias, so once I start thinking ill of someone, it's easy for me to find examples of what a douchebag they are.
From time to time, this becomes a problem, as these people are usually friends with my friends. Since I don't sufficiently mask my hostility, it makes those mutual friends uncomfortable. In addition, I suspect that it drives some of those mutual friends away from me, since they think the other person is great and I just have this irrational hatred.
I'm pretty sure I'm the bad person here, for being unwilling to forgive and forget. There's a part of me that feels there's something noble in my consistency here, but intellectually I think that part is probably incorrect. I also have a weird idea that if I accept that I should forgive and forget, it would be consistent to forget the good things about old friends, too, and I wouldn't want to do that. Of course, the difference is that liking people is socially welcome and disliking people is socially inappropriate. I do know that.
I don't have a concluding thought to wrap this all up. I guess it's just that I do know that I have this tendency, and I apologize if it's been a problem for you. I'm not committed to working on it, but I'm sure I'll revisit this in my thoughts in the future. Current Mood: contemplative
|Saturday, April 4th, 2009|
|Congratulations, San Diego Derby Dolls!
Christine, Adam, Wayne, and I went to the Del Mar Fairgrounds tonight to watch roller derby, put on by the San Diego Derby Dolls
. I've never been to roller derby before. I'm glad I went. It was very exciting!
This is totally a sport for the Rocky aesthetic. Women with a variety of body types wear sexy but protective outfits and kick each other's asses while roller skating around a small track. The action is broken up into "jams" of no more than two minutes each. I don't understand the game enough to spot all the infractions, but it was still good fun. Back when the Gulls were playing, hockey was the sport the Rocky people went to together. Perhaps roller derby should be the new one!
I did do some fanboy squeeing over sissystck
, who didn't compete tonight, but was helping with their bench. I've been following her LJ for some time now, and I finally got to introduce myself in person.
Anyway, the game itself was fun to watch, even though San Diego completely trounced the San Luis Obispo team, 179 to 47, so there wasn't really the thrill of a close match. It's still a pretty exciting sport in person. I know that almost everybody I know will be busy with one party or another on April 18th, but perhaps I can convince some people to go to a future bout.
Unrelated, awesome steampunk animation: Jasper Morello
|Thursday, March 5th, 2009|
|Thursday, February 12th, 2009|
|Haiku of my day
The tooth is better
Yay for antibiotics
Next, crown in mid-March
Friday the Thirteenth
Should be a big Rocky show
I'll be playing Frank
I miss getting paid
I'm wasting all this free time
Work gives me structure
I did a website
But he took it down
My chances are ten percent
But I'm just guessing
My home life is good
Christine remains wonderful
And Roxy is cute
City of Heroes
Too many alt characters
To badge-whore them all
Fallout 3 is fun
Restored a save to explore
Avoiding the end
Off to lunch with Rose
Catch up, say hi, get Kate's stuff
Mandarin, of course Current Mood: relaxed
|Friday, February 6th, 2009|
|I miss chewing
For weeks I've had a painful molar. I was lacking insurance due to the layoff, though. Now I finally got on Christine's insurance as her domestic partner (and I'm once again grateful to gay people for making that possible). I went to the dentist on Tuesday for an exam and went back on Thursday for the actual root canal.
Now it's a whole different pain. The root area is infected, so they half-did the procedure, injected some bleach in there, and gave me antibiotics. They slapped a temporary crown on top. I go back in a month, when hopefully the infection will have died off.
The problem now is that infected area is really, really sensitive to pressure. With the temporary crown on, every little jostle gets transmitted to the infected area and gives me a shock of pain. Actually biting down is the worst, but even talking is a little bit painful, since my tongue jostles the tooth a bit. I got used to a certain pain associated with hot and cold beverages, but now that's gone. Instead, I have pain in swallowing, because the act of swallowing pulls on the tooth a little, and that's enough to be noticeable.
Even just chewing with the left side of my mouth isn't a perfect option, because sometimes I'll manage to bite all the way through something and the right side of my jaw closes. Ow.
On the good side, I expect the pain to die down over the coming days, as the infection gets crippled by antibiotics and killed by my body (I hope).
Unrelated: Some awesome modifications of My Little Ponies. Current Mood: restless
|Sunday, January 18th, 2009|
|Catching up: Vegas
On New Year's Day, Christine and I drove to Vegas and spent a few days there. It was a blast. This is one of those pic-heavy posts with some commentary.( Cut because I careCollapse )
And that was Vegas!
|Friday, January 9th, 2009|
|We like boobs
This Friday, January 9th, Crazed Imaginations
(the Rocky Horror cast I'm in) will be collecting money for breast cancer. Normally we beg for money at the end of the show and bank it for future big expenses (e.g. major props, our Pride float, or the deposit for the Lyceum). This time, though, we'll be asking for nothing for ourselves, but plenty for charity! So show up and be generous, please!
I expect that, as usual for these sorts of charity shows, we'll get only slightly more in the hat than usual, but it will be approximately doubled by cast members dropping money in the hat. Thus, we'll end up with a fair amount to drop on the charity. (I don't recall which particular breast cancer charity we're donating to. I'm sure I was told, but it didn't stick with me. I'm pretty sure it's a good one, though.)
|Friday, December 19th, 2008|
OK, I really do celebrate Christmas, but I like the idea of Saturnalia
. Misrule and license, but only within limits? That's what brings me to Rocky.
Since I'm jobless, I'm not doing much for Christmas this year. There are a lot of friends I would normally worry about getting stuff for. (Am I gift-exchanging with Sean this year? What about Dale? Or Nicole?) This time, I'm just getting stuff for Christine and our immediate families.
If you like making donations in lieu of gifts, my favorite charities are Doctors Without Borders
and the San Diego Food Bank
. This year I actually put my holiday donation budget into Toys for Tots
because Christine's work was collecting for them.
Sorry for not keeping up my end of the usual Christmas consumer orgy. I'll get you next time, I imagine.
|Sunday, December 14th, 2008|
Sometimes I find LJ overwhelming, but I hate to miss something. So when I've gone a couple of days without checking it, I end up paging back through hundreds of posts. There is good stuff in there, but I feel this nagging sense of being incomplete until I catch up, so I open everything interesting in new tabs and go on. So when I've finally caught up on the friends-list, I have dozens of tabs to go through, and all of those take time to actually read.
Somehow I feel like I have less time for this than I did when I was employed. Part of that is the schedule change, of course. LJ is no longer part of my routine before starting work. :)
|Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008|
I've been laid off. It turns out it takes several boxes to contain all the crap that built up in my office over three and a half years of employment.
This is a bummer, of course, but I am getting a decent amount of severance pay, and I already have a couple of leads.
I am glad that I didn't do a lot of Christmas shopping yet, since I suspect I'll be hoarding money a bit until I find another gig. (Not entirely hoarding, though. I'm too much of a consumer to be a miser.) Current Mood: sad
|Wednesday, November 26th, 2008|
|What do the inner-city kids use instead of MySpace?
I reach out to you, the group mind, to help me figure out where the inner-city kids go online. I'm so wrapped up in my own white privilege that I really have no idea.
I'm talking about people in their teens and early twenties. Going on broad stereotypes, I figure that if I want to find the privileged ones, I should look to Facebook. (I just got on Facebook a week ago, but I'm a little old for their demographics.) If I want to find the ones who feel like outsiders, I should look to MySpace. (There's virtually nothing on my MySpace, but again, I'm a bit old.)
However, I've recently heard some numbers (that I don't have in front of me, so I can't give specifics) suggesting that there really aren't as many inner-city young people on MySpace as I would have expected.
I realize that computer ownership isn't exactly ubiquitous, so a lot of those people may not have any online presence at all, but it was still surprising to me. Young people have a burning need to connect with each other, don't they? Wouldn't young people who didn't have an internet connection at home still go use a school computer, library computer, or friend's computer to set up an internet presence of some kind?
So I ask you, is there somewhere online for those inner-city young people, or are they all connecting via pre-paid cellular phones and not through the internet? Current Mood: curious
|Tuesday, November 25th, 2008|
|I crave entertainment!
I'm chillin' at work, updating LJ while code compiles and recompiles, since I'm trying to sort out my various compilation errors, and the easiest way to see if a particular fix worked is to hit Rebuild Solution. (Curse you, case-sensitive variable names!)
I keep reloading LJ and Twitter because my brain seeks something easier to do than what I'm supposed to be doing today. It's not that it's super challenging, but it's a bit of a stretch, so there's a lot of me guessing and probably doing things inefficiently. I'm sure I'll get bitched at next week, when everyone comes back from the week they're taking off.( Thanksgiving babbleCollapse )
Anyway, enough about that. Things are generally good. I might even have to start doing the "three good things" meme that snobahr
uses to keep a positive tone. :)